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Personal information

Real name

D. Ray Lilley

Website

http://www.thestumblingblock.com

Country

United States

About Me

Presently in Tucson, Arizona, I'm hoping soon to return to my home of Georgia and be with my pagan family. I am pagan, but I am first and foremost an eco-anarchist believing in the diversity and destruction of civilization as expressed by authors Daniel Quinn and Derrick Jensen, and have spent far more time on this venture lately than I have towards pagan studies. It is my main focus and passion.

I'm a djembe drummer who loves drum circles, camping and bonfires, and beautiful music. I'm also into tarot and runes. However, as I've never fit in with this society, I've never had any upbringing whatsoever, nor any guidance other than the school and the people paid to barely acknowledge my existence. So I've zero discipline or knowledge of how to make it in this world, and that includes any training in any pagan or religious path. It is possibly the main reason for my growing hatred for this culture. I'm tired of always being told I'm wrong about everything I say or in everything I do, yet having had absolutely nobody care about showing me what it was that I could do to make them happy. Yes, I'm angry. Yes, I'm bitter. Yes, I'M SICK OF IT ALL.

I was aspiring to be a writer, but I realized I'd never be able to figure out all the hoops, fine print, and bull to get myself published. I have written a book I'm hoping to publish, but I don't have a clue what I'm doing and wish someone could help me. I have no money either. I do not work. I will never work again, not that I've ever been able to find work anyway. So how to go about it is beyond me, but I think my book could make it and be bigger than Da Vinci Code... I just never have anybody willing to read it for me or help me with it. I've had to do it all alone.

The book is called THE STUMBLING BLOCK and the website has a movie version of what I'm trying to say in the book. The movie was also made entirely by myself, and I did the best I can. It's frustrating. I'm very frustrated. I don't give a crap about making a dime off the book, only to get the message out to as many as possible. I'll give it away for free!

I care about nothing but the message. I'm lost. I don't know what I'm capable of doing to help this revolution, but I'd do anything in my power. It's all I care about. It's all I think about. It's my life.

thepaganbear@yahoo.com
http://www.thestumblingblock.com/PB = my writings
http://paganbear.livejournal.com = my blog

History

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